Clara and Nikolai meet at a rave. They return to Nikolai’s apartment and frantically make love. Afterwards, instead of parting, the two lovers divulge their deepest secrets to one another.
Nicolai is a beautiful loner, one with great ambition which he’s unable to articulate to his peers. At thirty-one years old, he leads a simple and frugal life. He applies himself to reading the great classics of literature but never finishes a book he has begun. Unable to submit to any schedule, he finds himself unfit for work. He envisions big projects and has expansive ideas but, inevitably and despite himself, loses sight of them before they are realized. Clara, like Nikolai, seems not to be made for this world. She leads a double life. By day, she works as a third grade teacher; by night, she is a compulsive party-girl, exorcizing or forgetting her vaunted hopes. She goes out every night, gets drunk and high, invites high-voltage sexual combinations, all the while desperately trying to fill an emotional void yet never succeeding.
Though they are tempted to animas by all-too-common and divisive gender politics, politics they simultaneously fear and embrace, the friction between them is trumped by a common determination to bridge the gap that they realize afflicts the women and men of their lost, but far from hopeless, generation.