"When I'm trying to find my inner peace, when it seems like everything is overwhelming, I put music in my ears," Jennifer Hudson tells Entertainment Weekly, in an exclusive interview.

As the world knows, after a meteoric rise that included an Oscar for "Dreamgirls," Hudson's life was shattered last October when her mother, brother and nephew were murdered. Hudson, understandably, went into seclusion, resurfacing in February to sing the National Anthem at the Super Bowl and then perform a stirring rendition of "You Pulled Me Through" on the Grammys.
Now, Hudson is co-headlining a 27-date tour with Robin Thicke and she tells EW that there's no place she'd rather be than on stage. ''This is what I love to do, and I hate to sit still,'' she says. ''I have been active for the past four or five years, and to be working like that and then to just stop and all you hear is the clock ticking... 'That will drive you crazy.''

Hudson doesn't discuss the murders with EW and, if you see Hudson out and about, she says, practice a little restraint.. ''It's one of the most beautiful things, to see that love from fans, but it can be a bit much,'' Hudson says. ''I don't like it when people get all emotional and cry. I don't want you to cry. It makes me uncomfortable. The other day this lady came up to me and got really close to me, and I thought, 'What is it that makes people want to...embrace me? And how do I react to it?'''